I believe that when we are open and ready everything we need will be provided. I remember back in 2007 during my last year in South Florida and my 4th year of my doctorate program I was introduced to triathlon. Before that I was playing soccer and running but knew I needed a change. I needed a new outlet, a different focus, and a different group of like-minded people and that is where triathlon changed my life. I loved the challenge of learning a new style of competition and mostly the change of lifestyle. South Florida was an easy place to get my priorities mixed up and the temptation to “keep up with the Joneses.” Triathlon and the lifestyle asked me to choose between staying up all night and partying or was I going to get up early to swim, bike, and run with the group before the hot humid temps kicked in. I had a choice and triathlon helped me make the much-needed shift in my life. Triathlon helped me navigate the changes that came after 2007, especially when I moved from Florida, to Kansas, and then California. The friends I met at the Kansas tri club were amazing and really helped me adjust that year. It was just what I needed at that time. Then coming to California and meeting my husband through a triathlon connection was pretty awesome. I could go on and on about how triathlon has been an avenue and instrument to help me grow and challenge myself. I am truly grateful for that.
However life is not without change and sometimes we notice that that things that once served an important role in our life no longer do, and sometimes not for any other reason than because things change. Some people don’t like it and others embrace it. Regardless of our disposition towards it…Change. Is. Always. Happening. Many times we have a tendency to judge change as “good” or “bad” instead of just riding the wave of it, and that is where I am at today.
As you can tell from previous posts I’ve really started committing to my yoga practice. Right now I believe it is the change I need. It is helping to challenge me to grow and learn in new ways that I hadn’t before. To be honest, I’ve tried yoga before in the past but it never stuck. I believe it’s because I was not ready for it. I was not willing to make space for it and that’s okay. There is a time for everything and when it is time God and our intuition will let us know. Our job is to deeply listen and trust. So one night not too long ago something inside of me said it was time to go back. I did, and I thank God that I did! It was exactly what I needed and need at this time of my life. Many changes are happening personally and professionally that I am excited for! However, that does not mean that my world had been easy peasy, quite the opposite. I’ve been shaken up, rattled, challenged, betrayed, and broken down by some things in life but I know it is all in effort to build me back up stronger, wiser, and with more love to offer. Yoga is teaching me to trust this on a whole other level. Sometimes we must be willing to be broken down in order to let go of the things that no longer serve a purpose for us, with the goal of making space for the new things in life that encourage our continued growth. This can be difficult because while my deeper wisdom knows its for a higher good my ego self is still scared, fearful, and does not want to let go for fear that I will not have anything to hold on to…but…yoga is there to teach me to embrace the fear, look at it, and trust myself in the process of it. Yoga is teaching me that there is nothing more than I need to do than be willing to be with all that presents in life, and in me, and accept where it is in this moment and go back to my breath. Go back to life and trust.
I am so excited for this new shift in my journey and excited to share it with you all! However, I must admit that there will probably less triathlon and more running and yoga in the near future for me, I’m okay with it, I hope you can be too. It is what I need at this moment in my life and I am deeply grateful to know that:)
I posted to IG today: “This space is changing my life. I hope you all have something or a place that allows you to be your full self. A space in your life that challenges you to open your heart, love yourself, face fears, accepts you as you are, and gives you what you need but never asks for more than what you have. It does not have to be #yoga but find something, keep growing, keep loving….YOU.”
So beautiful people don’t be afraid to let go of what is no longer serving you in life- people, places, situations, belief systems, jobs, or lifestyles. Trust that Life will hold you. Trust yourself. Trust that on the other side of fear there is so much love waiting for you. I say this with so much conviction because I have been there. I know what it is like but I can also tell you that if you are reading this you have survived it because deep down in you there is the essence of who you are…Love. Never changing. Eternal. Love.
Mucho love and shine on beautiful people!